Inside The Mind of A Living Dead Girl

2006-10-12T08:23:00.000-07:00

Gawd..
He keeps telling me he doesn't have friends..
Now I know why..
Asshole..

2006-10-10T09:19:00.000-07:00

† Conquer Online †

Wow..
This game is addicting..
o.o

I play it like more than 12 hrs a day..
But its great..

Ok..
Dun really know what to say..
I just want to level up.. -.-

2006-09-28T11:25:00.000-07:00

† Vampirefreaks †

I had high expectations for this site..
I thought this would be a different one..
Where people are actually non-judgemental
and everyone can do their own thing..

It was different alright..
It was worse..
Everyone was like trying to be the toughest,
the bitchiest or the one who didnt care bout what
other people think of her the most..

I think they're all a bunch of hypocrites..
Yea sure some of them are ok
but they're lost somewhere in the sea of
people who think they're so above everyone else..

Some kids go there for help because
in real life they're outcasts or discriminated..
But I don't think they realized that
its all the same in that site..

People there will still label you, judge you
and make you feel bad about yourself..
Because everyone there is competing to be the most different,
the gothic-est, the emo-est.. It's pathetic..

And there's that rating thing..
Most of the kids who go there have low self-confidence..
And that rating system isn't really gonna help them..
What about those who didn't get a lot of ratings?

I was there..
And it felt like high school all over again..
And I left before I completely lost my sanity..
Too much drama..

I hope those kids who go there for help
get the help they really need..
I feel bad for them and I want so much to help them
I wanna be their friend and all that..

And if they asked for my help..
My first advice would be..
To leave that site..

But just to make it clear..
I'm not really saying the site makers are big asses
for making the site..
More like the people who are in there..

And hey! I did get ratings too! =p

2006-09-21T09:26:00.000-07:00

I'm back home from
two nights of sleeping over at Mai's..

We had a lot of fun!
We went to the casino and
played on the tables and slot machines..

And we took some funny pics..
As always.. =D

But right now, I'm sick..
So I'm going back to sleep..

I hate it when I get email from crap..

2006-09-17T09:03:00.000-07:00

Yes, those were taken in the bathroom..

Well, the lights in the hotel were dim
and it was hard to take pics
since we were using my phone's cam
and it doesnt have a flash..

Heheh..

2006-09-16T09:02:00.000-07:00

Me and Mai went to the casino
and it was fun!!!

Here are some pics we took at the hotel
while we waited for my mom..

2006-09-13T14:27:00.000-07:00

Yea its gone.. I think..

Anyways, I just got home from the casino..
It was fun..
Fun wasting money.. - . -

I'm tired..

2006-09-12T11:07:00.000-07:00

One more then its gone..

I think..

I hope so..

2006-09-11T12:41:00.000-07:00

It's funny when you try to look for somthing
but you don't realize that
you're looking for it in the wrong places..

It takes a while to know that..
And sometimes you don't want to admit its there..

2006-09-10T11:05:00.000-07:00

Damn..
Why didn't I think of this sooner?
Could have saved
a lot of heartaches..

2006-09-09T10:19:00.000-07:00

I wonder who's the fag
who gave some asshole my phone no.

He said it was a friend..
And I was stumped..
I don't have any fag friends..

Except for the ones in high school
but they don't have my phone no.

Gosh.. It's a mystery..
One I don't really care about..
Whoever it was should just go to hell..

2006-09-08T08:56:00.000-07:00

I'm bored..
I'm going to sleep..
Hooray for me..

2006-09-07T13:38:00.000-07:00

There's a Russian guy
who was sent to annoy me..
Grrrrr..

Not the guy in the pic..
Some other Russian guy..

2006-09-07T09:53:00.000-07:00

OMG!!
That Russian guy..
He made contact..

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

2006-09-06T12:44:00.000-07:00

Me and mai went to
get our NBI clearance today..
And boy do my feet hurt..
Plus it was so hot!

But I'm glad its over..
I hope it all goes well
cause there is no chance in hell
I'm going to go there again!

It was like torture.. Really..

Then after that we went to some malls..
And then to her house..
And I just woke up..
I'm tired..

2006-09-05T12:08:00.000-07:00

Yep, he is an asshole.. =)

2006-09-05T08:48:00.000-07:00

† Desperate Housewife †

I was watching Desperate Housewives
which is what I have been doing every late night..
I'm on Season 2 now..

And I just watched the episode
where Gabrielle thought this guy from prison
was gonna kill her but he was actually
sent by her husband to help her deal with her miscarriage..

She thought it was gonna be easy
since she didn't really want the baby..
But she found it hard to let go of the balloon
which symbolized the baby..

And she was saying that she was gonna
name the baby Charlie if it was a boy..
And Aurora if it was a girl..
And..

I felt her loss..
No, I didn't have a miscarriage..
But I've lost the two kids I dreamt of
when I lost a special someone..

And I did have names picked out..
That's why I felt for Gabrielle..

And just like her,
I don't rily want kids..
But with him,
I wanted those two kids..

Twins..
A boy and a girl..
And they have their father's eyes..
And my smile.. =p

And I'm also one of those people
who really do not want to get married..
But I can't wait to get older
so that he and I could get married..

Why am I writing all of these?
I hope nobody reads my blog..
I'm pretty sure no one does..
Oh please God no..

2006-09-04T13:06:00.000-07:00

I am in love with
this guy's face...

Btw, he's russian!!

2006-09-03T08:48:00.000-07:00

† Remedy †

No better way to make
a girl feel better than..

SHOPPING!!!

I've started buying
Charles & Keith shoes again..
I stopped coz they were always having sales
and lowering their prices.

And my reason for buying
in their store was so that I could
have shoes that not everyone
can have..

And their sales and
price decreases weren't rily helping..

But anyway, they're back to normal
and I hope they stay that way..
Besides, I always get a discount
coz I have a privilege card. =D

2006-09-02T09:19:00.000-07:00

I keep telling myself
I should just get over it..
But no matter how hard I try,
I just can't..

No matter what I do
Where I go
Or who I talk to...
I am always reminded of him..

I can still feel the pain..

2006-09-02T08:09:00.000-07:00

Wut the hell was that last post?

"Go wit the flowww.. yeaaa"

I mean.. seriously
where do I come up with these things?!
I sound like some hippie..
Just creepy..

Wow it rhymed..

2006-09-01T08:39:00.000-07:00

goooooooooooooo wit the floww
yea

2006-08-26T09:04:00.000-07:00

† Jaded †

I wish I was jaded...
Emotionless..
It's much better that way..

Cause when you are..
You can't feel anything..
You can't feel pain..
You can't feel sadness..

And even though
you can't feel happiness..
It's much better that way..
Cause laughs always mean tears after..

Sometimes worse..
And the happiness
ain't worth it at all..

"I know that I am dead -
yet I still have some tears to shed"

2006-08-25T10:54:00.000-07:00

Omg I am bored..

Bored to death..

Why am I still alive?

2006-08-24T09:38:00.000-07:00

I dreamt I was playing under the rain..
And when I told it to rain harder,
it did..

But I also dreamt that
I was attacked by ants..
And I kept scratching myself
and woke up still scratching.hahah

It was funny though
cause it did rain today..
But I didn't go out..
Well, I did for lyk a few min.

It was really cold..
And besides, I already got wet in my dream..
So, I decided to pass..

There was also a fortune-teller
in my dream..
But I didn't get to have my fortune told
coz our maid had hers done first..

Darn it..
It would have been amazing
if she had done mine..

It could have been something important
that I needed to know..

2006-08-20T10:44:00.000-07:00

I wish I could stay in my
fantasies forever..
The real world just isnt for me..

I know a way to stay inside..

I just don't know if I can do it..

2006-08-19T15:10:00.000-07:00

Why does the internet always
fuck up when I need it the most?!

They're really out to get me!

It just ruins everything..

It sux...

2006-08-19T09:04:00.000-07:00

† Bathroom Lady †

Okay...
Something that happens only once
in a blue moon happened..

I cleaned the bathroom..

Yes I did..
Well, just the floor coz my arms
were aching already..
Plus I cut my hand on a sharp edge
and it was bleeding..

But I kept going..
Even though my hand was bleeding
and stuff..

I was just bored
but wen I started cleaning..
I realized I was very angry
but I didn't know why..

So the floor got a beating..

I scrubbed and scrubbed until
my arms hurt..
I scrubbed so hard if I hadnt' stop
I think I would have scrubbed the color off the tiles..

Maybe I'm rily taking this
housekeeper thing seriously huh? heheh

2006-08-17T09:13:00.000-07:00

† The Undomestic Goddess †

I want to be a housekeeper..

Well if you read Sophie Kinsella's book,
"The Undomestic Goddess",
You'd want to be one too!

I finished the book in one day
cz I cudn't put it down..

It's a great book.. Well all of her books
are great.. I've read them all..
I love the Shopaholic Series..
Very funny..

Anyway, the book is perfect
for those who have forgotten how to have fun..
So busy with work and stuff
that they forget about what's rily important..

Themselves..

And sometimes, the things you want..
Aren't really what you need..

Listen to your heart..
It does make some people do stupid things,
but it actually knows what its doing..

Do what makes you happy..

I feel so wise and stuff.. Bah..

2006-08-14T14:43:00.000-07:00

I'm laughin right now..
By myself..
Laughin out loud..

Why?

Coz I read my horoscope
and it came true..

I love u, God! =p

2006-08-11T13:13:00.000-07:00

† Disturbed †

I was drawing again today..
And here's what my twisted mind
made..

TADAAAA!!

Well...

They made my black heart feel..
Hidden emotions spilled out..

But how they did it was painful..
And now they left it
lying on a pool of hurt...

2006-08-11T09:13:00.000-07:00

I dreamt I had powers..
And I was the leader of this group..
We were the good guys..
And we gathered up somewhere..

I remember there was this rily
huge guy wearing leather pants and jacket
and with him were two little girls
wearing pink and they brought something wit them..
Their power was fire..

And there was this girl who was
rily quiet..
But I don't remember what her
powers were..

So anyways, there was like a dozen of us..
And we were hiding somewhere..
The enemies shouldn't see us
so I used my invisibility shield to hide everyone..

And because of that, it made me weak..
I had to do it on everyone and for a long time..

When it was time to fight,
my powers were weak..
I couldn't defeat my enemy..
So you know what I did?

I grabbed a stick..
Yea, a stick..
And I stabbed her..
A lot..

I stabbed her on every part of her body..
Even her head..
And it felt so real..

Then when I thought she was dead..
I turned my back to help the others..
But she tried to attack me!

Good thing the others from my side came..
My group had attacked first..
And now the second group, mostly males, arrived..

This guy helped me..
I don't know who he was but I guess we
had something with each other..

Anyway, he helped me..
And together we levitated the woman..
He told me to concentrate..
And then I was doing it on my own..

I raised her up..
And then down.. Hard..
And then up..
And down..

I repeated that a lot of times
until she couldn't get down anymore..
You know why?

Coz her head got stuck to a big hook..

And well, I wasn't done yet y'know..
I used my powers to push her head
through the hook.. Deep..

Imagine what I could do to you..
If u fuck around with me..

2006-08-10T09:20:00.000-07:00

† Girl Interrupted †

I was drawing today..
And this is what I made..

It's me..
Crying inside..
My weary heart bleeds..
And darkness overflows in me..

I'm losing hope..
There's no escaping now..

Death would be a welcome relief..

2006-08-10T09:15:00.000-07:00

Like a woman waiting for
her lover to come home from war...

I wait for him..

And like her..
I worry..

Will he be the same person
he was when he left?
Will his feelings for me change?

And most of all..

Will he come back to me?

2006-08-08T13:41:00.000-07:00

† Tou Com Saudades Tuas †

Is it possible to miss someone so much?

All you want is for him
to be there with you..
All you think is
"I wish he was here.."

Then thoughts of what might happen fill your mind..

What if when he comes back
everything becomes different?
What if the feelings
ain't the same anymore?

What if he's not the same person?
What if you're not the same person?

And then you think of him with someone else..

You wish he only thinks of you
when he's with her..
And he realizes that you
are the one for him.. not her..

And you hope she doesn't make her laugh
because his laugh belongs to you..

(Ahahah that's from a song!)

If only time would go faster..

Fast forward to that moment
where you will be together at last..
Safe in each other's arms..

"I don't know why I get jealous when you're with someone else..
Maybe it's coz u might have too much fun with them
you'd forget about me.."

2006-08-06T12:54:00.000-07:00

† No Rain, No Pain †

It was raining hard yesterday
So I did what any normal person would do..
I stood under the rain..

I stood there for like almost an hour..
Oh I didn't just stand there,
I also tasted the rain..

As always, my dog wouldn't play wit me
under the rain..
She just sat there watching me
udner the shade..

So yea, I stood there..
Even though it was freezing cold..
But I didn't care..
Cz it felt good..

It hurt..
And I wanted it to hurt..

I would have stayed there
till the rain stopped..

But...

I saw a cockroach..

So I ran back inside the house..
I didn't run coz I got scared..
I was tryin to protect my dog..

Uh-huh..

"Take Me To Your Leader!!"

2006-07-23T08:31:00.000-07:00

Everyone's having kids right now..
Like its a new fad or something..
Makes me think, y'know..

No I don't want to have kids..
Well, not yet.. I'm still too young for that..
But when the time comes, I'm like thinking..
How am I gonna raise them?

Am I gonna raise them like how
my parents raised me?
Or... Not like how my parents raised me?

Well I think I turned out pretty well..
I don't do drugs..
I don't bang every guy I meet..

But I wish my parents showered me more with love
than material things..

Mai says she's gonna spoil her kid..
And I'm thinking..
Should I spoil mine too?
If I do, it might turn out like me..

Yea I know I said I turned out well..
But I don't want my kid to become a spoiled brat..
Like me.. hehehe

It's so hard when you can't get
everything you want..
And when everything
is taken from you...

And I don't want my kid to
have to deal with how hard that is..
I want him to be strong
and grow up to be a good man..

One thing's for sure..
I'm gonna shower him with love..
And lots and lots of love..

But I'm not gonna be overprotective..
He might turn gay or something..
Wouldn't want that..

2006-07-22T09:29:00.000-07:00

† What Dreams May Come †

I don't know how..
But he appeared right in front of me..
We both knew it wasn't real..
But I held out my hand to touch him..

Then we wrapped our arms around each other..
And it was the best feeling ever..
Even if it was just a dream...

And all we were both wishing was that
if only we could really feel each other's touch..
I don't know about you but...
In reality, that's all I want more than anythin in this world...

Tou Com Saudades Tuas Mi Amor..

2006-07-20T09:45:00.000-07:00

"Wake up! It's already 4!"

And faster than you can say
banana hammock,
I was up on my feet and thinking,

"OMG! I didnt get to go online!"

But then I noticed...
I was wearing my jeans...
and I realized..
It was 4 PM not 4 AM!!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!
Bang! Bang! Bang!

2006-07-15T12:47:00.000-07:00

Who's trying to kill me?

2006-07-14T12:02:00.000-07:00

† Girls Just Wanna Have Fun †

2006-07-14T11:52:00.000-07:00

Some people just don't know when to stop..
Why can't they just live their lives
and stop messing wit other peoples lives?
They rily piss me off..

You know who you are..
Hope you'll take my advice..
If you forgot wut it was..
It's..

FUCK OFF!

2006-07-04T09:17:00.000-07:00

Omg...
Are u ok???

It's driving me crazy...

2006-06-27T04:07:00.000-07:00

I'm in skul right now...

I r so bored...

Prick your finger it is done...

The moon has now eclipsed the sun...

The angel has spread its wings...

The time has come for bitter things...

2006-06-26T11:26:00.000-07:00

† The Ordertaker †

2006-06-26T09:51:00.000-07:00

† I Don't Like The Drugs But The Drugs Like Me †

2006-06-21T10:05:00.000-07:00

† Rain Rain †

The rain felt so good..
I would have stayed under it forever
except it was already gettin rily cold..

And the dogs left me..hahha
They went back inside the house..
Hmph..

My hair is still wet..
I loved standing under the rain..
Felt so good..

2006-06-19T11:26:00.000-07:00

† Dried Up, Tied & Dead To The World †

I'm gonna have a sucky day today..
How do I know?
Coz I'm so hyper right now
and it's still early in the morning..

I'm even standing while typing this..
Can't sit still..
I think I'm gonna die today..
Ahahahahah!

But yea I'm gonna have a sucky day..
I'll prolly be crying by tonight..
Or tomorrow..

I think I'm gonna fall down
the escalator at the mall later..
Or trip and fall
down the stairs..
Where everyone can see!

FOXY, FOXY!

Today...
I'm gonna drink to the madness
that made me this way!

2006-06-17T04:13:00.000-07:00

† Rain On Me †

It was raining..
Not rily as hard as I wanted it to be..
But it was good enough..

I went outside
and sat under the rain..

It felt good..
I don't know why I like it..
But maybe coz the rain
cries for me..

And it feels so good
when it touches my face..
And runs down my cheeks
like tears..

The rain serves as
the tears I cry inside..
And it kinda releases
all the emotions that are
bottled up in me..

The ones I cannot show..
The ones I try to hide..

I wish it would rain again..
Harder this time..

Coz it didn't cry enough for me..

2006-06-15T09:16:00.000-07:00

You Are 76% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at high risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is very likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

2006-06-14T03:00:00.000-07:00

† Rainy Day †

Played under the rain today!!
It was fun..

At first, I just wanted to
sit under the rain..
Like get a small chair
and just sit on it under the rain..

But me doggies followed me
so we played under the rain!

It ended with just me
playing by myself
coz they wont come out
from the garage anymore.hahah

I tried to get them to chase me
but they wudnt!
Hmph

But it was fun..
It would have been funner
if I had someone to
dance wit under the rain!

2006-06-13T10:03:00.000-07:00

† Charmed †

I can't believe that was the last
Charmed episode.. =(

I loved the ending
but I didnt want it to end!!
We all didnt want it to end..
We.. My uncle and my sister..

I was all choked up
watching the ending..
It's like we've been a part
of the Halliwell's lives..

So sad to see my favorite show end..
I still remember watchin the
first episode..
I was still in high school..

I wish it didnt end!!!!

I'm gonna miss the Halliwell Sisters..
Leo.. Chris.. Wyatt...
Grams.. Everyone..

The Halliwell's will always be a part of me..
They're just like my family..
And my sisters and I are the Charmed ones..

† The Halliwells †

† The Abellanas †

† Charmed Ones †

2006-06-13T03:38:00.000-07:00

I wanna write something
but I can't think of anything..

Uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

2006-06-10T11:06:00.000-07:00

† X - Men †

If you still haven't seen the movie
and still plan to see it..
Then don't read my blog..
This is a spoiler..

Oh fuck it..
Like anyone reads this crap..

Anyways, I watched X-Men wit my family
and it was awesome!
I love all the X-Men movies..
Coz I love the X-Men!!

If you keep sayin X-men lots of times..
It'll sound weird..

But oh well..
I still love them!
Ok now the spoilers..

I can't believe Prof. X died!!
And Cyclops..
And Jean Grey!!

And.. dlkasfhdoifh!!

Ok....

I went to see the movie wit my family
and it was awesome!
Yay! Everyones happy!

- The End -

2006-06-09T11:42:00.000-07:00

Wow..
It was raining so hard
it woke me up.. Twice..

The second time i woke up
I couldn't go back to sleep right away..
Jersey was snuggling up to me
and she was acting different..

It scared me..
So I was crying.. :|

But it turns out..
She was just afraid of the storm..
I think..

We already took her to the vet
and they said there was nothin wrong wit her..
I hope so..
I'd die if anythin bad would happen to her..

2006-06-09T03:31:00.000-07:00

I had the ickiest dream today
and its all Pedro's fault!! =p

He was making frog sounds yesterday
and so I dreamt of frogs.hahah
Small ones and RILY BIG ones!!

And I was on the edge of something
trying not to fall coz if I did
the frogs would touch me.. :S

And even worse..
There were all kinds of insects!!
I felt something on my neck
and it was a ladybug!
And there were insects everywhere..

I woke up scratching myself all over!!
All ur fault Pedro Penduko!

HALA KA PEDS!!

2006-06-06T03:44:00.000-07:00

† The Omen †

This morning...
I laughed like I have never laughed
in a longtime..

I was on the phone wit mai2x
and we were talking about something..
And we just burst out laughing
and couldn't stop even if we tried..

Mai had tears in her eyes
and I couldn't breathe from laughin..
It was great
but it scares me..

Why?

Well.. I was born to be unhappy..
And my fears include laughing like that..
I know that the tears are going to be worse
Coz I don't deserve to be happy..

Sometimes the laughter
isn't worth the tears..
That's why I don't really laugh a lot..
And I hate laughing a lot..

When I'm laughing, all I can think of is
why I'm gonna be crying later..

Then I remembered...
Today is 06-06-06...

Must be why I was so "happy"..

2006-06-04T10:16:00.000-07:00

How come old people
can get away with anything?

We were grocery shopping
and when it was time to pay..
The line was really long
but we had no choice..

Then my sis found a shorter one so I went to her
and my uncle followed with the cart..
But before he could pass,
an old woman with her maid
lined up behind me!

My sis called my uncle to come to us
but then the old woman told her maid
to move forward..
So my uncle couldnt get to us
unless he ran those two over..

My sis and I didnt move
and she told me to tell the old woman to move back..
She didnt want to do it cz the old lady
might get mad at her and make a scene..

So guess what I did?

Nothing..

And not because she's an old lady..
I was afraid she might make a scene too..
That would be really embarrassing..
Embarrassment is my least favorite emotion..

So my uncle told me and my sis
to just let the two ladies pass
and since they only had like 3 or 4 items
it wont really matter..

But that still pisses me off..
Those two even tried to cut in
on the line beside us when they saw a lil space
but the next person moved forward so
they didnt get to cut in..

I didn't really want to let them through
coz we got there first..

But well..
old people are like animals..
You wanna hate them when they annoy you
but when you look at them..

They got this look..
You just can't hate them..
Well.. some of them..
dirty old men don't count..

2006-06-02T11:24:00.000-07:00

WARNING!
Don't try this at home!
It is very dangerous!!!

2006-06-01T13:59:00.000-07:00

† Am I Not Pretty Enough? †

I just remembered this song today..
My seatmate in high school
used to sing it a lot..

Am I Not Pretty Enough - Kasey Chambers

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should i try it harder
Why do you see right through me?

I live, I breathe,
I let it rain on me.
I sleep, I wake I try hard not to break.
I crave, I love, I 've waited long enough.
I try as hard as I can.

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should i try it harder
Why do you see right
through me?

I laugh,I feel,
I make believe it's real.
I fall, I freeze,
I pray down on my knees.
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man.
I try as hard as I can.

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should i try it harder
Why do you see right through me?

Why do you see, Why do you see,
Why do you see, right through me
Why do you see, Why do you see,
Why do you see, right throughme
Why do you see, Why do you see,
Why do you see, right through me
Why do you see, Why do you see,
Why do you see...
Right through me?

2006-05-29T12:28:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna post the speech
I made for English class
Coz Candice wants to read it..
So she can have something to do
for her lunch break.. =)

I made this in a hurry
so it's not really that good..
I think I did it like the night before
we had to pass it.heheh

Ok.. Here it goes..
Ahem... Ahem!

† Women †

“Why are women so much more interesting to men than men are to women?” - Virginia Woolf (1882-1941), British Novelist

“Men are taught to apologize for their weaknesses, women for their strengths.” - Lois Wyse, Writer

“A woman is like a tea bag. It's only when she's in hot water that you realize how strong she is.” – Eleanor Roosevelt (1884-1945), American First Lady & Humanitarian

“The thing women have yet to learn is nobody gives you power. You just take it.” -Roseanne Barr, Comedian

“In passing, also, I would like to say that the first time Adam had a chance he laid the blame on a woman." - Nancy Astor (1879-1964), British Politician

The month of March is known to be the Fire Prevention Month. And also it’s the month of graduates. For me, March is the most significant month of the year. Aside from the fact that it’s my birth month, March is also widely known as Women’s History Month. And it’s safe to say that it is also the month of women in general. So what’s so special about women? And what makes them so great?

To quote Joseph Conrad, a British novelist, “Being a woman is a terribly difficult task, since it consists principally in dealing with men.” In some cultures, women are treated very poorly and men are raised on pedestals and worshipped like gods. Women do not deserve to be treated that way.

From The Torch, September 1987, “Because women's work is never done and is underpaid or unpaid or boring or repetitious and we're the first to get fired and what we look like is more important than what we do and if we get raped it's our fault and if we get beaten we must have provoked it and if we raise our voices we're nagging bitches and if we enjoy sex we're nymphos and if we don't we're frigid and if we love women it's because we can't get a "real" man and if we ask our doctor too many questions we're neurotic and/or pushy and if we expect childcare we're selfish and if we stand up for our rights we're aggressive and "unfeminine" and if we don't we're typical weak females and if we want to get married we're out to trap a man and if we don't we're unnatural and because we still can't get an adequate safe contraceptive but men can walk on the moon and if we can't cope or don't want a pregnancy we're made to feel guilty about abortion and for lots of other reasons we are part of the women's liberation movement.”. How good does a female athlete have to be before we just call her an athlete? Why are women being branded as the weaker sex? Women have always been denied their rights, looked down and stripped of their identity. But we are strong and always have been. Women like Emmeline Pankhurst, Elizabeth Cady Stanton, Susan B. Anthony, Sojourner Truth and many other amazing women fought for women’s rights and for us to get the respect that we deserve from every human being in the planet. Some even lost their lives in their fight for justice and equality. But these extraordinary women gave us back the voice that men took away from us. They gave us back the self-respect that we almost lost because men had stomped us down and beat us to the ground. They reminded us of how great and special we are.

I’m not saying that we should annihilate the entire male race although that isn’t such a bad idea but I hate to say it, we need men just as much as men need us. It’s the balance of nature, Yin and Yang. One compliments the other and vice versa. And if that is achieved then we have found Utopia. But it’s not always peachy in wonderland.

So woman if anyone tries to bring you down, denies you your rights or makes you feel worthless remember those remarkable women who fought for you so your voice could be heard, so you could have equal rights with men and so you could wear pants. Stand up and raise your voice. Do not allow yourself to be a victim of man’s ignorance. Famous actor Will Rogers said, and I quote “Women are not the weak, frail little flowers that they are advertised. There has never been anything invented yet, including war, that a man would enter into, that a woman wouldn't, too.” Empower yourself, woman. And shout to the world, “I am woman, hear me roar!”

2006-05-28T12:32:00.000-07:00

I just remembered one of the trailers..

† The Lake House †

"One man I can never meet - him,
I would like to give my whole heart to."

2006-05-28T11:04:00.000-07:00

† The Da Vinci Code †

I watched the movie with my family
and I thought it was nice..
I loved it when they did flashbacks
and the ending gave me goosebumps..

It was nothing like the book though..
The book was awesome..
But the movie is still worth watching..

Paul Bettany looked rily hot as Silas.. =D

Anyways, my cousin and his family
spent Sunday with us..
Their baby, Jared, was lookin rily cute as always..
And my parents really enjoy playing with him..

At the restaurant, when my dad finished eating
he watched Jared and played with him..
And I saw how happy it made him..
Made me want to have a baby.. ack!

Ok.. Now that I've said it..
O.O

2006-05-26T12:14:00.000-07:00

† 10 Things I Hate About You †

I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you say my name.

I hate the way you make me jealous,

I hate it when you care.

I hate your crazy pic,

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way youre always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when youre not around,

and the fact that you didnt call.

But mostly I hate the way I dont hate you,

not even close

not even a little bit

not even at all.

2006-05-19T14:20:00.000-07:00

† Time is going so fast... †

2006-05-17T11:33:00.000-07:00

Another day filled with uncertainty.
And I just wait for everything to come tumbling down.
Just waiting for the failures and disappointments.
Waiting for the tears and the heartaches.
Every single second is torture.
We wait for this moment to end but when it does
we cry, we bitch and
we wish it never ended...

2006-05-16T11:19:00.000-07:00

† Stuart Little †

I went down to make pancit canton
and there were like 2 or 3 mice
running around..
They were cute little blind mice..
WAAAAAAAAAA!!
blind mice.. AHAHHAHA!!

I wasn't really going to type blind but
then my hands typed them.hahah

Anyway, they were cute little BLACK mice..
And while I was preparing my food,
one of them came out of its hiding place
and was just standing near me..

So I threw a small piece of noodle at it
and I thought he would run away
but he didn't..
So I watched as he cautiously walked
towards the noodle,
took it then run away..

Cutest thing I ever saw!!!

2006-05-16T09:09:00.000-07:00

What if one day you wake up and you just stop believing? You just stop hoping?
Then you start thinking...
Everything’s not going to be fine. It’s not going to work.
It’s not going to last. You’re gonna fail.
You’ll never be happy.
Is this what they say “reality sinking in”?

Reality sucks.
Yea, we all know that. Everyone’s said that a million times.
Then what’s the point of hoping when in the end
it’s all just going to come crashing down?
What’s the point of believing when it’s obvious
there’s not going to be any happy ending?
What’s the point of living?

To make you feel miserable.
To make you go insane.
To get your heart broken.
Or just to die.
Why do we keep hoping that everything is going to be fine?
And why do people keep telling us that?
Hoping is an open invitation for pain, for disappointment and for unhappiness.
It’s like shouting to the world, “Yo! I’m over here! Hurt me!”

So what’s our purpose in life?
Or do we actually have one?
We’re all just traveling down the road to disappointment.
Our lives are going nowhere.
We keep thinking that life is going to get better someday and then…
Bam! You get hit by a truck. Your house burns down.
Your wife leaves you for your best friend.
And then what? Start hoping for a better life again?

Is it all worth it? Does the pain make us stronger?
Or should we just give up?
They say that when you stop hoping and when you stop believing
then you’ve stopped living.
Then what’s reality?
I guess we’re all just living in one big fantasy with chocolate syrup and cherry on top.
And then without warning,
reality eats it all up and you’re left with nothing.
Nothing but hope.

We're doomed...

2006-05-13T03:17:00.000-07:00

"Love Me"

That's what he said..

And I replied with that dancing foca emoticon
Pedro sent me.. heheh

I mean.. come on..
what did he expect?
I'd come running back to him?!
Hell no way!

He must have realized what
a big mistake he made..
Well..
Too late!

He can go back to his shemale
for all I care..

Nyahahahhahaha

2006-05-09T10:46:00.000-07:00

LivingDeadGirl
is so bored
and pissed off wit
her internet connection..

Grrrrrr...

2006-05-07T10:54:00.000-07:00

Went to see Mission Impossible III
with my family..

I thought it was nice..
I mean, what do I know about action movies?
Does the storyline matter?
Or just the special effects?

Oh well, either way
I thought it was nice..
It was all good..

And Tom's wife in the movie,
looked A LOT like Katie Holmes..
In the ending, she actually wore something
that I've seen Katie wear..

He's obsessed with her..
Or maybe he just really loves her a lot..
Love.. eh?

2006-05-05T08:44:00.000-07:00

Another 2-day adventure wit my friends!
My house then at Maimai's..

We had sugba2x at my house
and then we got drunk afterwards..hahah
We made funny videos
and danced the night away!

One of us got really wasted
so I went with them
thats why I ended up sleeping over
at Maimai's house..

There we continued the fun..
No more drinkin tho..hahah
We had to take care of our friend..
Hope you're feeling better now!!

When it was just me and maimai left
We had a little fun..
We took pics.. duh..
What else?!

Here are our pics inspired by Pedro Penduko

† Pedro Penduko Tribute †

2006-05-03T14:03:00.000-07:00

Some people can be so pathetic..
It's annoying..

2006-05-02T11:23:00.000-07:00

† Pedro Penduko †

2006-05-01T09:45:00.000-07:00

That thing appeared while
I was playing Pyramids
on Neopets..
Its cute.. but I have no idea
what its for...

2006-04-29T21:44:00.000-07:00

† GIRLS Just Wanna Have Fun!!! †

Two days full of fun,
well I think it was one and a half
but who cares??
It was fun!

My day started bad, I think I woke up on the
wrong side of the bed..
I had to get the worst taxi driver ever
but at least he wasnt mean..
I actually felt sorry for him..

Okay, so my friends and I met at Cheaverz,
had a few drinks then we went to BTC
coz Diding had to "make an appearance"(hahah)
and after that we stopped by my house coz
I had to change my outfit.hahaha

We went to C24, (C2 hahah), but instead of stayin there
we decided to just buy beer and go somewhere else..
And so we went to the top of the world!
We went to Mountain View and we stayed on
the little hut that could easily fall down the mountain.hahah

The "funnest" part was going back down the mountain
and we were like goin to die! weeeee
The car was goin soooo fast, I loved it!!
Me likes fast cars.. well only if I can trust the driver..

We stopped by this place to eat
and then we all went home..
Where's home?
At maimai's!! aka Boodoo!!

Okay so this was the "funnest" part..
I brought my webcam wit me so we had fun wit it..
HOLA MI AMOR!!! =p

We went out to buy phood..
I slept like around 7 am..
Maimai and Diding were already asleep..
They prolly got tired
coz I kept winning wen we played cards!! waaaaaaaaaaaaa =p

Then for the rest of the day,
we took pics.. A LOT of pics..
and we made music videos.hahah

Too bad Trixie wasnt around!!
It wasnt the same without you Trix!
Lesbiana!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2006-04-27T09:24:00.000-07:00

I'm starting a new life..
Forget everything about the past..
Well not everything
but a few ones that have cause me so much stress..

Maybe you know who you are..
Maybe you don't..
I don't really care anymore
coz as of this moment..
I DON'T KNOW YOU ANYMORE!

I'm tearing off that chapter in my life
where I knew you..
And tear it to bits and pieces..
Burn it and watch as the wind blows the ashes away..

Because I'm gonna free myself from
the stress your causing me..
No, don't talk about me
cz I'm sure as hell not gonna be talking about you..

I'm not gonna waste my life on you..
I've got my girls wit me
and that's all that matters..

Birds of the same feather flock together
and well...
You're just from a diff. species!

† Diding, Trixie, Maimai & Me †

2006-04-23T10:37:00.000-07:00

† The Simple Life †

The pic looks better now.
I've learned how to blend colors,
thanks to Corn.
So.. uhm.. thanks Corn!

2006-04-22T05:27:00.000-07:00

† Nadine's Believe It Or Not †

† Pussydog Dolls †

† D's Child †

† Kelly Rowland Showdown †

2006-04-21T12:48:00.000-07:00

I saw an interesting movie today..
I just searched the title, its "For Keeps"
And the guy in it was very hot..
It's a 1988 movie so he's prolly old today
but still he was very hot..
And I thought he was great in that movie..
Not like I've seen his other movies but yea he was great there..

So anyway, the movie is about two teens, Darcy and Stan,
who both have bright futures ahead of them.
Then they did something that would change their lives forever.
They had.. O.O s-e-x .. gasp! Shocking..
And of course, with great sex comes great responsibility.
It also comes with poopie diapers.

Yea she got pregnant.
Their parents wanted them to get rid of it
but they wanted to keep it.
And since their parents were against it,
they ran off with each other.

They found an apartment, lived there
and got married.
Yea it was in that order.
He looked very hot esp. when he joined her in the shower. 0.o
That was actually a funny scene.

So yea, she gave birth and bla bla bla..
Now the problems came..
And all that stuff..
I'm sleepy..

Ok, so the movie shows the reality of what
would happen if you can't control your libido.
People should be careful esp. nowadays,
everyones doing it whereever, whenever, however.

A baby isnt just something you can take back
to the store and exchange for something else.
It's not something you can throw away if
you don't want it anymore.
It's a big responsibility and a big pain in the arse. =D

So y'all should just watch the movie
cz I'm tired of typing.
And well, its your life.
Do what you want to do.
It's your future you're destroying anyways.

2006-04-20T09:24:00.000-07:00

Guess who??

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHHAHAHAHAH
HAHAHHAHAHAH
HAHAHAHAHA
AHAHAHAH
HAHAHA
HAHA
HA!

2006-04-19T13:18:00.000-07:00

Amazing huh?
I was playing billiards and the balls
just formed into a heart..
Weird..

Amazingly weird..
It looks like a rosary too..
I could be the next virgin mary..
Who knows?

2006-04-18T09:27:00.000-07:00

My dad's bday today...
We went out for dinner..
Food was okay.. I had fun making halo2x..
No fun eating it tho.. I put too much in it..

And one month today,
I got to talk to a special someone for the first time..
Happiness never lasts..
I don't know if this will..

I'm eating spicy pancit canton right now..
If I eat it carefully, I won't get allergies..
And everyone will be happy..
Great..

Oh yea I'm obsessed with billiards..
Can't stop playing..
I need professional help..
An intervention..

2006-04-17T11:57:00.000-07:00

Don't really know what to write..
Had nothin else to do..
Maybe I should just go to sleep..
But I'm not sleepy..
O.O

2006-04-16T22:28:00.000-07:00

Mr. Sandman came but I said,
"Leave, you sandman .. man!"
So yea he left..

Oh ya wanna see a pic of Mr. Sandman?
Ok sure..
And since ur special, I'm gonna show u his wifey too..
Here they are...

† Mr. & Mrs. Sandman †

2006-04-16T13:42:00.000-07:00

† Dead Eyes See No Future †

Everyone's dead today..
Veeeery bored right now..
I see dead people !

2006-04-16T10:48:00.000-07:00

I just woke up..
Yep, Mr. Sandman found me!
I slept for like 5 hours only tho..
Had to wake up.. for someone.. who isn't even around..

Is it true we unconsciously enjoy being hurt?
If that's the case, I must be a
very unconsciously happy person!
Right.. Great.. I feel so much better now..

2006-04-15T23:54:00.000-07:00

† SLEEP †
I don't know what that word means anymore..
I think Mr. Sandman forgets to visit me sometimes..
He prolly lost my address..
Oh well..
† HAPPY EASTER!!! †

2006-04-15T12:42:00.000-07:00

Nights are not the same without him
It feels empty..
It's like the day never ends
cz I didn't get to talk to him...
Feels so incomplete..

I'm missing you
and it's making me blue, yeah
I'm missing you
but what can I do
Thousand miles away, from you

2006-04-15T08:53:00.000-07:00

Very bored right now..
I wonder where everyone is..
Okay..
Don't know what to write..
Here's the new stars of
The Simple Life..
Replacing Paris and Nicole,
Here are...

† Maimai & Nadine †

2006-04-14T10:21:00.000-07:00

Felt very creative yesterday
Made a poem
Messed with some pics
Here's one I made yesterday
And another one I made a few weeks ago

2006-04-13T23:40:00.000-07:00

† What's Sleep? †

It's almost 3 p.m and I have not slept at all
Yea.. haven't slept since yesterday
Dunno.. Didn't feel sleepy at all..
Don't feel like sleeping..

Amazing thing happened..
I actually wrote a poem
What's so amazing about it?
I'll tell you..

I haven't written one ever since
my x and I broke up
And that was like almost 3 yrs ago
Yep that long

I love the feeling I get after I finish writing one
It's like therapy
Like a huge burden was lifted
Although another one has replaced it

I made a poem
For someone... 0.o
And I don't know what he's gonna think of it
I don't even wanna think about it!

Ugh... crap...
Stop thinking about it..

2006-04-13T08:25:00.000-07:00

Why do some things have to be so complicated?

Yea, that's life... I know..
So why did I even bother asking that question?
Coz I'm bored thats why..

Wow I just realized,
my font color and my nails match!
Awesome...
Yea bored.. I know.. Well not anymore...

He's here...
But it still feels different
I hope it gets better...
I don't want to let go... eh?

2006-04-12T12:15:00.000-07:00

Not sure how I'm feeling ryt now..
You do everything for someone
but somehow its never enough..
And no matter how hard you try
you're still the bad guy..

2006-04-11T09:07:00.000-07:00

† WELCOME TO THE HOUSE OF PAIN †

Greetings Mortals!

Come and you will see
The beautiful mystery
Whats in my mind
The things you can find

Listen to what they said
The voices inside my head
All my pain
Driving me insane

You can't see behind the mask
Happiness never lasts
This blog i keep
Just read it and weep

† Living Dead Girl †